Tuesday, 21 January 2020
I sat in bed having a cup of tea thinking about what a profound blog I could write about how society doesn’t really accept disabilities etc posting a picture on Facebook thinking how I am going to change the world. National Acceptance Day is 20th January and yep today is the flipping 21st Jan that’s me late to the party I missed the day. This has nothing at all to do with Muscular Dystrophy it is just me being me. Today I don’t really care that’s just me.
I am starting to feel so much better I have realised that I worry far too much about what other people might think about me instead of just getting on with my life doing what is best for me. I have been struggling with such intense pain for a few months now and have been doing a lot of research and reading about my options. One of my options is medicinal cannabis but I am totally against this, I appreciate it works for some people but it is defiantly not an option for me. I can not tolerate morphine and I am allergic to codeine, medication wise this leaves anti inflammatory medication which is not a good option either I need to look after my kidney function.
There is a lot of evidence that a plant based diet is beneficial for muscle inflammation as well as the other health benefits, I have been considering trying this for some time. Lots of things have been stopping me the impact it might have on my family, not wanting to be awkward, thinking I couldn’t possibly live without eggs people might think I am going really strange. There is so much stereotypes about plant based diets.
However like most things in Amanda's world it has to get really uncomfortable before I consider changing, so I decided to give it a go, now is so the right time to do this as its Veganuary Vegan January , most of the supermarkets have a plant based section at the moment. It is very early days in my little experiment as I am only day 8, however I definitely feel different. My pain is definitely less this my well be a placebo effect because I am so desperate for this to work, my muscles are so much more relaxed the tension and spasm is far less. The other surprising thing is my headaches have gone, I have had headaches on a daily basis for many years these went after 24 hours.
Me being me is really enjoying reading and researching all about the different ingredients I am using I eat a lot of vegetarian meals its only really the diary free and eggs that I eat a lot of.
I am extremely fortunate as I have a vegetarian/(vegan at times) daughter who is also interested in nutrition and cooking so she has pointed me in the right direction.
So far the most surprising thing is the milk I have never really liked milk but oat milk to me is just delicious and alpro soya yoghurt I love. I cooked tofu for the first time today and yes I thought it was really tasty, I appreciate I have been very bored with my food recently so experimenting with different food is always good. I have decided to go 100% plant biased for 6 weeks I am not vegan as I will still wear my leather boots etc I am doing this to the pain experiment. I really don’t understand why I feel the need to justify to others why I am doing this. Don’t get me wrong other people haven’t said a thing it is my own prejudices about people that I am dealing with.
Today I have been out with Seabass and friends in the fresh air and loved it, I want to go back to being grateful for what I have got a lovely family and some great friends and live in a very comfortable country. I so need to try and get out more maybe I should try Red February as I am far to late for Red January.
Sunday, 12 January 2020
I kinda know what has happened and I have a few changes I need to make in my life, I do miss writing my blog, today I have read some of my posts and my goodness. I realise my command of the English language and spelling is rather pants. You would think I had never read any of my posts before I publish them there are so many typing mistakes and spelling errors , feel quite embarrassed but I suppose that’s just me .
The thing that struck me so much is how I keep repeating the same pattern, so why haven’t I put changes into place to help myself. I really don’t know is the answer.
At the moment the only thing I am doing is my role of a Slimming World Consultant which I do love, it hasn’t helped because I was already exhausted when I started the busiest time of the year. It all started with those blasted leaflets, I never dreamed that a little piece of paper can cause a person so much anguish. However they do, the reason they do is because I know first hand how much a little leaflet can change a persons life. So they are an important part of my role.
This time I have done things differently and had the most amazing help from some amazing people and if any of you read this blog I can not thank you all enough. The leaflet distribution worked we got all 6250 leaflets through letter boxes on time I actually enjoyed the days we where out leafleting.
I had a gentlemen join our group because of a little leaflet dropping on his mat, he is already feeling better about things and is looking forward to making changes in his shopping cooking and eating so he can improve his physical health, this is why I care about them so many people are desperate for help and it truly brakes my heart when people get pulled into quick fix fads that are not only expensive but they don’t work, they are then left feeling worse then when they started.
I have been doing other things when I think about it, because I am so sore and tired the nice things I have been doing just don’t seem as fun.
Last week we went to the pantomime which was just plain fabulous we arrived early as we do so decided to go for a coffee. My goodness that wasn’t easy all around the Theatre in Nottingham are lovely coffee shops and some not so lovely all with steps, we did manage to find a costa and it really didn’t bother me the access issues, this was most likely due to the fact a very nice car driver didn’t run me over when I forgot to look before I crossed the road. It’s amazing what a smile can do.
Not really sure where this blog is going or if I will publish it to be honest as it feels very poor old me and that’s not what I feel. I am so grateful that I have been born with an amazing ability to keep going and keep picking myself up. I just wish I could learn to not let myself get so low before I try and pick myself up.
I haven’t mentioned my food optimising journey well I am back on my journey towards TARGET I did amazing on the run up to Christmas totally in control, Christmas Day and Boxing Day just as I had planned then oops self destruct and a large gain. So much I felt such a fraud when my story was published on our Team page as on that day I was eating very high synced food. I really don’t know why I do it , I don’t enjoy it but even writing this I can feel a change from not even thinking of chocolate and cake to really wanting to have some. We all know we can when food optimising however I am starting to think I might have to permanently stay of the cake.
I am enjoying trying new foods at the moment and I am introducing more plant based meals for a few reasons which is a blog post in itself.
I think this is enough rambling for one day, just as a disclosure these are just my mad thoughts and before anyone puts 2 and 2 together and makes 7 I am still the same happy bunny enjoying my role as a Slimming World Consultant just have to manage my time so I am not so tired and let my little body rest. I am looking forward to spring getting my camera out and my crochet, also looking forward to blogging my adventures not just about my crazy brain.