Sunday, 4 August 2019
It's great to go up in the world.
This is such a learning curve I have also realised that I measure my self worth on some very arbitrary and odd things. Like do I make people laugh, how attractive I am not, how much I weigh, have I spots, does my hair look good. One of the most amusing for me is can you see my knicker line in these trousers I sit on my bum all day so why does it matter. Well all these things can make a difference to me if I let them.
Today I got something negative in my head that nearly sent me spiralling into I am a useless person a burden on everyone no fun to be with. Don't get me wrong I am flipping lucky to have the people in my life I do but occasionally that's how I feel. Don't think it's necessary to do with having Muscular Dystrophy but it's jolly handy to blame it on though. We are all in control of our thoughts not our feelings. I have to acknowledge that at times that's how I feel whether it's justified or not that's how I feel and when I do that I can go on to have a fabulous day like today rather than sit in self pity.
Another outing in the car to the water sports centre, Seabass is really getting the hang of the power chair and ramp. Another amazing thing now is when we stop to look at things, I can use the seat elevator on the chair to yes raise me up a little. Normally all I can see is the hand rail or through the fence like in the top two pictures. Not anymore look at the difference in the bottom picture. I can see over like a groan up I tall person not down low in my world. These little things are going to make such a difference to how much of the world I can actually see. The other thing is my hands, they no longer get sore and dirty from self propelling, everyday I am noticing some thing else to be grateful for and I am truly grateful and happy for my new found freedom in my wheels.
I am also just off to read about other blogg hosting sites as it appears my comments only work if you are a Google account user or leave them anonymous. Watch this space for the next technical tantrum.